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this is where you read about my life. day to day. sounds exciting doesnt it?
Tuesday, March 19
been busy lately. so many things going on that i cant seem to handle.
friday, after school i had plans to go out. but suddenly my dog started having another seizure. its been the third one this year. they usually last a min to 5 min. max. but i could tell that she was hurting inside since the first one. well, i was at my friends house while jenni stayed with fifi. i called her a couple of times, but the seizure was still going. something was wrong it had already been 2 hours.... i remember getting a message on my voicemail, but not a call.. because of the bad reception.. i had a bad feeling when i dialed the number... they had to put her to sleep. i still cant believe it. i dont know.. seems so blurry and crazy now that i look back on it... i didnt really feel it.. until i saw her. i bawled... she was just so small.. and i kept looking at her.. hoping that she really wasnt gone...
its weird now.. walking into the house.. without her there. i know she was just a dog.. but i loved her... and youd understand if you had a dog. its hard.. but i think shes more at peace now... i hope..
all this other school work that piled onto my emotional crap is really starting to get to me. and the fact that i feel kinda distant from my "friends" isnt helping.. sometimes i wonder if they even see me. maybe im invisable. its a possibility.. that would explain alot.. ALOT
Wednesday, March 13
meow-meow-chicka-meow. hurry back jenny-o i am bore-red. ;B spending too much time on computer. brain beginning to hurt. ;(
Which Action Star Are You?
clicky. lol. what a cutie.
oh yeah! thats my quote you big fat copier >;\
isnt it kinda freaky how blogger says welcome back pamela *hMm insert your own name here*? ew. kiiiinda creepy in a spooky "how do you know me" kinda way.
in a good mood. woo. jimmy eat world rocks my socks. as does hoobastank. haha i like it.
hMm home alone. considering dancing around naked. for fear of too much personal freedom/scaring fifi/causing myself more bodily harm. i decide to reconsider. boo-urns.
*mow-mow-chicka-mow* haha.. i read that and i thought it said *meow-meow-chicka-meow* haha. personally i think its funnier that way >:B bite me.
dont have too much homework today. YESSS! :P SAT's coming up this saturday. i think ill flor it. ohh yeah. i got a 41 on AP bio test!! AHHH. i literally jumped up and down in front of ms simko. it was ugly. but from the heart :o)
i dont want to go back to driving school. do you think ill get in trouble if i dont go for a while? i hope not.. ive got too much stuff on my back as it is. :B
gotta memorize lines for tomorrow. damn.
Tuesday, March 12
hmm i used to feel really close to this girl, thinking that maybe she felt the same way I did about a lot of things. boys, school, etcetera. i was never really close to her, but we were more than aquaintences. the more time went on and the further we drifted apart, i began to understand what kind of person she reallly was. she tends to copy people alot. shes the jealous type. shes a very superficial stereotypical friend. maybe trying to find out who she really is. i dont know. but its just kind of sad. and aggravating.
so, ive been so busy lately. and tired. i have this really gross infected cut on my wrist. it hurts alot too. i would go into detail, but for your sake i wont... so its been here for a week. of course my mom isnt going to take me to the doctor. shes the same mom that attempted to "un-jam" my broken finger by repeatedly yanking it with bengay. boo-urns.
well, im excited about the new york trip. its going to be so much fun. i think ill cry.
im scared to go to the doctor because i have to get a blood test im partly scared that ill get a bad blood test again and have another 4 inch bruise on my arm... that and lately ive been showing alot of the symptoms of diabetes and its starting to scare me because i have a REALLY high risk of having it because of my family history. i think ill just hope for the best.
im considering dropping FAME. too much work and time. and lord, i am certainly not going to live forever. ;\
Thursday, March 7
updated pictures. hmm learned how to archive. awesome. hungry.
just trying to make life ALOT more simple. ive been so busy lately. im starting to disgust myself. if anything, i hate "fitting things into my schedule" and it's really starting to get to me. really. juggling: musical rehersal, spanish club, nationals conference, weekend AP class, driving school and normal school.. its just getting ridiculous. and taking into consideration that im NOT a genius, nor am i kristen hayashida, but rather a normal lazy teenager this is not working well for me. but i can take it. i swear.
on another note, ive noticed how unbelievably selfish some people have become.. about keeping friends.. about everything. i know life can be a soap opera, but open your eyes and look at everyone else before you start to cry a river for yourself.
im tired. write later.. if i have something to say.
Wednesday, March 6
got bored of angelfire.. i do get bored easily. oh well.. ;\
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